WAIT!!! WHAT?!
Creating a new blog in 2016???!!!
hahahaha.
Actually i wasnt supposed to be doing this but FYP is serious f*** up.
i had nothing to do, so i went to see my blog which is quite long ago maybe few years?
It was terrible! My English is terrible! i don't even know what am i writing (can imagine how bad is my english). I am 21 now and everything in the past starts to pop out. I am gonna click on every of my friends link and see the blog that they have stop!
i have grown up a lot, feeling much more mature and quiet. Thinking back to the days where me and my friends goes to school together, staying back in school together, eat together, go toilet together, gossip about other girls together... Now, everything just changed. I started doing things alone and became more independent i guess. I had a lot of problems back in past but it hasn't changed a bit because we have problems almost every year but we just try to solved them one by one.
But this year it is different, I had to save money and thinking about my future studies. What am i going to do when i grow up to be like a lady?
A person who has a home, husband and kids? Well i never thought about that before but money issue is the first thing i had in mind. When am i gonna be rich one day? No i'll never be because i know that ive choosen the wrong course and now i have to live with it.
My parents are the ones that i am most worried about. According to my years of observing my siblings, they might not have the thoughts of keeping my parents. Maybe my brother but who knows his wife will actually accept them? For my sister, its like she wanted freedom more than she wanted a partner.
For me, im tired, im just tired of everything. I want a long holiday break which i can just go somewhere peaceful and just lie down and listen to the sea singing. How i wish everything could just stop and return to reality but it is, it is reality and im fully awake!!!
I always wonder if its me who is dreaming, but no. even slapping myself doesnt work at all.
its 5.10 now. gotta get back to my stupid and irritating project -_-
